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25 Things.

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things about you. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged.

1. I feel most at peace either by the water or in the mountains. Something about wide open spaces really seems to soothe my soul.

 

2. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I just want to change people's lives, and I really think I have the strength to do it. I just haven't quite figured out how, yet :)

3. I have two really strange "quirks;" 1) I cannot STAND the sound of jelly, butter, etc. being spread of toast and 2) I never ever finish a drink because I think the last inch or so is spit. I don't know why or when I developed these habits, but I just can't seem to shake them.

4. I lack a filter. If I want to say something, I feel as if I have the right to say it no matter what the consequence. I would never want to intentionally hurt someone, but I feel so compelled to say something, I won't hold back. This has caused a lot of people to dislike me or misinterpret my character, but I have always retained my sense of honesty and my right to voice my opinion.

 

5.I cry a lot more than I used to. I used to feel it was a sign of weakness and would only ever cry if I became angry, but now I cry for a lot of reasons.  Crying can be very refreshing and I don't try and fight it anymore.

 

6. I want to travel all over the world. I think everyone says that at one point or another, but I really mean it. I will see every place in the world that I want to see, no matter how long it takes me or how much money it costs me.

7. I hate when people say "You're so lucky" to me. I don't feel as if I am lucky AT ALL. Everything I have, I have worked incredibly hard for. I am blessed to have what I do, and I am eternally grateful for my family and all they have done for me, but I don't feel any of my life has been a result of being a lucky person. If anything, I create my own "luck."

 

8. I am a very independent person. I always have been, and I always will be. This does not mean to say, however, that I don't like having people close to me. Wanting people and needing people are very different things, and these days its hard for someone to accept that while they are WANTED, they are not NEEDED. I've just never felt as if I should rely on someone else for my own happiness. That should be all up to me.

9.I don't like phones. I don't like phone calls, I don't like text messaging - I used to be obsessive but now it feels more like a chore. This being said, there are a few people I could talk to on the phone for hours or text day in and day out. NOTE: I said a FEW people. ;)

10. If/when I ever get married, my wedding song will be "Can't Help Falling In Love" by Elvis. I don't necessarily see myself ever getting married, but if it happens, that's the song.

11. I want to learn how to play the piano so badly. I just need a piano, and even an ounce of patience, but seeing as I have neither of these things, I may have to leave this goal for the future.

12. I have spent most of my life creating targets and speeding towards them at a million miles a minute. I never slow down, but I am slowly learning that I absolutely must learn how to. I'm only racing myself, and wherever I'm going, I'll get there: I just need to appreciate the journey, too.

13. I am definitely a giver by nature. I want to make as many people as happy as I can all of the time. While I like this about me, I feel it definitely makes me more susceptible to being taken advantage of. I once read in a book that you should "never have a wishbone where your backbone should be." It is not a bad thing in the slightest to see the best in everyone, but it's also not a bad thing to proceed with caution.

14. Turning 21 and graduating from college in the same two weeks was definitely a strange feeling. In fact, it wasn't really a feeling at all. People kept asking "How do you feel!? Is it weird!?" And the answer is, well, the same, and not really? I don't feel any different. The only feeling I have is that I have reached a sort of anti-climax; everything is finished and I've reached where I wanted to be for so long, and now..nothing. This will definitely all be changing as I begin my career in a couple of weeks and many more goals will unfold.

15. I always feel as if I'm waiting for something. I am waiting to finish this project, I am waiting to get to this destination, I'm waiting to talk to this person. I can appreciate the present, but I have so much in life that I want to achieve, it stacks up quickly and I feel as if I'm always living in a whirlwind. My life is organized chaos, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

16. I have been deeply affected by my past relationships. There are details of certain relationships I have been in that I will never divulge to anyone, for various reasons. I truly feel that these experiences have distorted my outlook on future relationships, but not in a negative way. I have been jaded, I do have my regrets, and I do wish one particular situation had never happened and I would take it back in a heartbeat for all the pain it has caused me, but if these experiences had never happened, I wouldn't know what I want and should expect from someone in the future. There ARE good people out there, and I'm finding more of them the more I reach out.

17. All I see is black and white. I don't "do" gray areas; everything with  me is cut and dry, yes or no. Granted, this is not exactly the most reasonable way to live, but it's who I am and who I have always been. This has proved to me in recent months to be borderline impossible, and I am (very) slowly accepting that sometimes, I just can't have the answers. At least, have them right away.

18. I never learned to ride a bike. There is nothing else to say about this one.

19. I want a miniature pig as a pet SO BAD. They are so cute and sweet. I will have one of those, two or three horses, two or three dogs, and maybe a cat..one day. I love animals and if I could (and if it wasn't gross) I would have a house full of them. Dogs sit with you when you're sad or grumpy and don't ask questions (obviously), and I love that.

20. I think the one thing that upsets me most about people is when they waste their potential. I'm aware it "isn't my problem," but I think it's the saddest thing in the whole world when someone SETTLES. Settling is never and has never been an option in my book, and I can't stand seeing other people doing it. The world is everyone's oyster.

21. I have recently been told that if I am irritated by something, or I don't like what I hear, I crack my neck from side to side. I never, ever realized I do that but now I am so aware of it, it drives me nuts. I can't help myself and it is now apparently obvious to people. I have never been able to hide my emotions, especially from my facial expressions, and now this is just another slip-up I have that gives me away.

22. I'm kind of freaked out by the fact I won't be going back to school for a year or two. I complain about school all semester, but I think I'm going to miss it. I do plan on going back when I have my career started, to get my Masters, my PhD, and I want to get some sort of degree or certification in culinary arts, too.

23. I put a lot of effort into my appearance but being honest, there is nothing more boring to me. I can't do my hair, I hate getting my nails done, and I would rather wear sweats over jeans any day of the week. The only thing I have fun doing is my makeup, because I like to experiment with different colors.

24. I am addicted to online shopping. I find a picture of something, whether it be a book, a picture, an outfit or an electronic, and I need it. Immediately. My poor debit card hates me and I thank the Lord I do not yet own a credit card. I can't help my appreciation for the finer things... :)

25. For the first time in my life, I have GOOD, REAL girlfriends. I have never been one to stick with one friend; I'm outgoing and know a lot of people from very different circles. Over the past two years, however, I have found a few girlfriends that I can trust, laugh, and cry with every single day. My best friend, Kim, is one of the most incredible people I know. No one has ever accepted me and appreciated me as much as she does. I am so thankful for my close friends and for the impact they have had on my  life.